I've been so busy. This job is really getting to me. I think I'm on the brink of crumbling. I mean -- I really have had enough. It's just to the point where my stomach turns at the sight of some people. I think this job is changing me into a definitively mean person.

Honestly, now that I think about it, I've been in a bad mood for almost 3 months. I mean, it's almost unrelenting. I haven't done anything creative. I haven't really been particularly nice to my friends. Nothing. I've seriously been a complete and total dick for over a quarter of the year.

All for this fucking job . . . This fucking, shitty, cocksucking, crapola, assie, shit-fuck job. At some point, I could say that it was "good experience" and that "I'm learning a lot, maybe about stuff I don't want to know, but stuff that I should know," but now I'm learning what it's going to be like when I spend an eternity in Hell.

God forgive me for going down this path.